the zeitgeist of zoe

This quote

“When you least expect it, something great will come along – something better than you ever planned for.  Mother Nature opens millions of flowers every day without forcing the buds.  Let this be a reminder not to force anything, but to simply give beautiful things enough love and an opportunity to grow naturally.”

How very true.

I’m one of those people who analyze the living hell out of things. Mostly myself, but still…it’s a lot of time, energy and synaptic firings that could definitely be put to better use elsewhere. I don’t so much force things as I try to understand the motivation behind them. Again, mostly I focus this on myself. My OCD has taken a perfectly natural desire to do my best; BE my best and run amok with it to what has been a lifelong battle with perfectionism.

“I should have known that”. “Why didn’t I see that coming”. Or the dreaded, “I did everything right and it still failed, wtf?”

But I have come to learn that if I don’t have all the answers now, it is because I don’t NEED them all right now. The point is just to chillax, learn, grow and trust the process.

Like all this stuff with my sudden affinity for color. I am hereby going to quit trying to figure out the why of it and just enjoy it. Who cares why…it’s fun, it’s upbeat and it’s certainly not hurting anyone.

I could not have foreseen, organized, planned or otherwise predicted that my life would be what it is today. That I would have become the woman I am today. And thank goodness, because frankly my life is  sooooooo much better than I could have ever imagined.

The point is not to “make it happen” or get it right, the point is to be willing to adapt and redefine yourself. And do it every day.

Trust the process…all of life is a process. Embrace it!

Office supply stores

Today my boss sent me to Staples for a color ink cartridge. Biiiiiiig mistake!

I came back with this:

In case you are curious, that is a 7″x9″ Studio C polka-dot notebook, some corresponding Studio C colorful patterned tabs, neon Post-it Notes, assorted colorful tabs (can you even BELIEVE that I bought heart shaped ones?! This whole happy/love thing is getting waaaaaay outta hand) and star Post-it’s.

The best part? It didn’t cost me a dime because I had coupons for reward points : )

Feeling so fucking good

I know I’ve only been on my new fitness plan for a mere three days, but I already feel SO MUCH BETTER! I am constantly amazed at how quickly and well my body responds when I take proper care of it.

My mood is fantastic (even at work, lol), I have a ton more energy, I’m sleeping like a rock…have I mentioned my mood is, like, great all the time?!

I’m not even doing anything that radical! I get up and do 30 minutes of…something…every morning (except the ones that the bf stays over because I can’t tear myself away from the warm snuggliness;  those days I work out at night), I quit hitting Starbucks or Subway for my usual junky breakfast and instead bring something low in fat & high in protein from home, I have replaced everything I drink  – except for my one glass of green tea in the morning – with water (and lots of it) and I am snacking only on raw fruits and veggies.

That’s it! Three stinking days and I feel like a different person.

To the point that the people I work with are actually freaked out because I’m so perky and in such a good mood all day. Most of ’em are still afraid of me, don’t get me wrong, but now it’s just for other reasons  ; )

haiku

boyfriend

because of you i

 now see the world in color

you make me feel fuschia

before you poets get up in arms, i am well aware that last line has one too many syllables…however, i am most emphatically not saying “you make me feel pink” because that’s completely and utterly lame.

my blog, my rules.

and besides, he doesn’t make me feel pink…he makes me feel hot pink.  rowr!